No one understands loss until it happens
Like a crushing wave, sweeping you off your feet
Tumbling you around without mercy
A roller coaster of emotions with
A searing pain right through your heart
Loss can stab you, beat you, and break you
All in one swift and cunning blow
And before the feelings have even hit you
Like a bright light
You see it flash before you feel the warmth
But this warmth isn't comforting
This warmth is cold
Far from fleeting
Lingering pain
But before this even hits you, you cry
Perhaps not yet knowing why you cry at all
Your mind unable to comprehend the event
It shuts down for the briefest of moments
As if wishing the bad news away
Will change the cold reality
But the tears roll down your cheeks
Rain on the windshield
Uncontrollable
But it finally catches you
And it holds you close
The room gets smaller
The air gets heavy
And you stop breathing for the slightest moment
It hits
Hard
And the tears flow even faster now
As if your eyes were the flood gates
Smashing open with all this emotion
You crumple
Sometimes losing balance
Sometimes because that's all you can do
Or all you want to do
Wanting to curl up in a ball and be lost for a while
Embarrassed your head bows like the sun every evening
Dipping and running away
You feel your heart literally wrench and your chest gets heavy
You can't function and the word loss now has a new meaning
Because no one understands loss until it happens
And I feel this now
This stinging blow
Now I understand what it truly means
To have it all taken
Truly feeling
At a Loss