If you are not dead you are far from me. If you are not dead you are knocking on some other suckerβs door. Perhaps he is in debt and in love, cursed in similar afflictions. Perhaps he is up to the eyes in hedge funds and stock investments, his symmetric face smiling down his checkbook at you, attracting you in ways mine never could.
If you are not dead than perhaps you are happy. If you are not dead than perhaps you are sad. I certainly will never know. Do wedding bells ring already? Do the long nights of love break bones in bitter morning?
For a long time this imagination proved worse than any reality could have possibly been; I lay in fevered dreams, praying for answers, only hoping to find where love had been lain to rest. Now, it is just nice to be rid of the whole deal.