I feel my body losing control.
I'm losing sight of who I am.
I know what I'm becoming.
I've been here before.

I need to get away from the feeling;
the intense despair of being,
so, completely and utterly
alone.

I'm not alone anymore.
Why do I feel like this?
The waves of intense agony,
flowing through my system,
through the hole you left in my heart.

But the hole is slowly filling,
no matter how many times I lapse.
Because I know someone is there,
When I feel like I'll collapse.

Just recounting the tales,
of my hardships,
my loss, my love.
Has opened the hole again;
for new pain to flush out my system,
of the happy memories I'm trying to make.

I'm trying.
So hard.
To let you go.

I don't know who you are anymore.
That's why it hurts so much,
I thought you were my friend.

But instead,
you pulled me into the deep end,
and let me go.
Knowing I was unable to swim.

I kicked until I had no energy.
I screamed until my lungs were numb.
And still you just watched in cruel delight,
waiting for me to sink to the bottom.

But you don't know me anymore.

Pulled from the deep,
the day that I found you.
Pulled from the deep,
the day that our love grew.
Pulled from the deep,
but my past will not undo.

But I know I can escape the pain.
With your arms there to shield me,
I won't hurt again.

(This was just kind of something new I was trying...just kinda writing down the things going on in my head without really planning it out. Feedback? Opinions?)