you thought you wanted
the truth at any cost, even pain

but the truth had
lay on you so heavily you hadn’t known pain.
you hadn’t known how it felt to have it
curl up in your stomach and
bleed into your veins.
you didn’t know the feeling of
a misery that increased with every heartbeat
as it  penetrated  your everyday living and breathing .

you never knew that
the truth felt like this.