Imagine a building falling on top of you, first it crushes your bones then it spreads your brain a couple blocks over and leaves pieces of you scattered so far apart and in such tiny fragments that they can't tell if that is part of your finger or trash that someone was too careless to throw away.
Now imagine floating on a cloud so light that you think your breath is heavier than your body, and every thought is so happy it makes you want to cry because you never knew life could be that good.
Combine the two and you enter a perpetual state of confusion, of too many emotions in the wrong time and the wrong place.
Combine the two and prepare to see your life falling apart and coming together and prepare to lose everything that you aren't even sure you care about.