what to do
when there is a party next to you
situation finds me
on my back porch
if that is the right word for it
loud music loud voices loud energy
flooding in from porch adjacent
how to invite myself
i could knock i could walk in
i could come baring gifts
i could open my door
doubling the statistical advantage
of a good time
i could brush my teeth
i could hide the week old laundry
i could start a game
i could make them smile
i could meet a girl i could marry her
i could find magic in
their refrigerator magnets
or
i could  write this poem
wishing only listening
glistening regret
and smoke this cigarette