It jumps back to feeling so alone
And its scary, the worlds a scary place
And i don't feel like i have a hand i can reach out to
So i can take baby steps back into the water

But it's a lose lose situation
If i stay back and isolate, i lose
If i go out and do things, i lose
When I stay in my room i grieve
But when I go out
I have more to grieve about

I lose, and I lose, and I just keep losing
And somehow getting help wasn't enough
And now things are progressively worse
Just so....so....so bad

My feelings jump large gaps
"I'm fine, leave me alone"
"I hate it here, i want to **** myself"
"I can't think, i'm getting anxious"

My GAD kills me
Everyday becoming anxious of when ill become anxious
Anxiety gets the best of me
Anxiety makes my wrists bleed
Anxiety makes me yell and scream
Anxiety.....just hates me

I want to **** it
I want to **** others
Left, right, left, right
I can't cry but...i do sometimes

And then i lose inspiration
and unfortunately i end this poem
cuz i forgot what to say