It's been a long time since I've heard your voice. I'm forgetting what it sounds like now. The only thing that can take away any pain and sadness. The only thing that can make me happy. Your voice can calm the sea. You'll never know what it does to me. I miss your 2am calls, your raspy voice telling me that I'm your forever. Falling asleep to the sound of you saying, "I love you. I love you. I love you. To infinity and beyond." I bet you don't remember the calls that had me crying in the corner of my dark bedroom. Telling me that you can no longer take the pain. Telling me you wanted to die. Hearing you cry and scream at the world for what it's done to you. That's a sound I'll never forget. Thousands of miles away, I felt so helpless. All I could say was, "I love you. I need you. I know it's selfish, but please don't leave me." One year later, I forgot what it sounds like to hear you say my name. Your laugh, your cries. I don't remember. Please remind me so I can sleep at night. The voice that used to calm my mind is now a distant memory. The same voice that used to put me to sleep is now putting her to sleep.