And that's when I jumped. There was no one to catch me, no push, the ground was stable, and the air was calm. My eyes were closed and my lips were slightly parted taking slow deep breaths.

So many times had I walked to this same spot, my heart racing and my palms clammy. I had begged for there to be a shove or an unknown force throw me over because I wasn't capable of doing so myself. Other times I wanted nothing more than to fall, but be saved or begged to not go. Maybe, the ground would crumble beneath me and the wind would drag me down. No, I was never that fortunate.

But today was different. I was ready. After letting the world echo inside my vacant being, I opened my eyes allowing myself to comply. I took the leap.