A lie told a thousand times
is still a lie, only slightly harder to deny
the biggest lie anyone can tell anyone
yet such a little phrase shared between only you and her
something able to turn someone from freezing to
blazing and then back to cold again
it's able to turn off the light
leave you out in the night
so she can watch you fight off the tears as she leaves for no reason more
than her simple carnal desire that will eventually evolve into
the burning fire of a sentence that used to be exclusively used for you

"I love you"

How can one little line
cause a thousand other lines to burn red in your skin as you wonder if you're the only one she says it to?
How can something once so innocent and sweet
break down the walls you built up in your head
and cause you to take up residency underneath your sheets?

It's the one thing she never felt
and when you figured it out, you had already fell
it was too late and now you're on your bathroom floor and it smells like ****
and you're hoping your parents don't walk in, knowing you can't face them as you chase down your Zoloft with chemicals and pour them in the wounds that she cut into you
but you keep going on
hoping for a miracle
wondering if she'll feel something
wondering if you'll stop feeling
wondering if she even felt it in the first place
wondering why and how you even started in the first place

Breaking your heart
Never to be repeated
Impossible to deny
due to pink ribbon lines
made out of sight