things i want to say to you
by rebecca-suzanne
I ALWAYS COUNTED ON YOU,
BUT SOMETHING JUST NEVER
ADDED UP QUITE RIGHT.
IT HIT ME SO HARD,
I STILL HAVE DOUBLE VISION.
YOUR FACE IS STILL FUZZY
IN MY MEMORY.
BUT I THINK THAT CAME WITH
TIME.
TIME AWAY FROM YOU.
TIME TO BREATHE.
TIME TO WALK ON MY OWN.
BECAUSE THE DAMN CLOCK
NEVER HELD MY TREMBLING HANDS
LIKE YOU DID.
BUT IT NEVER LIED TO ME
LIKE YOU DID.
* * * * *
WHEN I HEARD THE NEWS
ALL I COULD THINK WAS
"HOW DOES HE LIVE WITH HIMSELF?"
THEN I REMEMBERED YOU HAVE
TROUBLE SLEEPING AT NIGHT.
IS IT FROM THE GUILT?
OR THE CHORUS OF TEXTS
FROM ALL THE GIRLS
YOU'RE SLEEPING WITH?
* * * * *
I WANT ALL MY TIME BACK.
I WANT TO GO BACK AND
NEVER LAY EYES ON YOU.
I WANT EVERYTHING BACK.
I WANT MY SECRETS,
SWEATERS, AND SERENITY BACK.
GIVE IT BACK, YOU FUCK.