i was born with a sickness that dripped from ***** blood bag she was born with gold ribbons tying her skin together i wish i could have pulled a little harder unraveled her from the outside in
she said i was small and insignificant
i told her to water me give me incisors sharpen them like the knives in my kitchen drawer you won't recognize herΒ Β
can you drown in the forced love of yourself?
i love me i love me i love me i love me i love me
is that why i can't dig up the old roots that she buried inside my chest? i am filled to the brim with artificial self love where does the love for other people fit inside? im a broken puzzle piece that only fits inside itself i thought i had found all my pieces but really it was an ampersand trying to make a bridge to cross from one life to another smooth sailing
oh mother
oh father
you created something that looks like how scratches on a chalkboard sound i am so so