so why don't you take these clothes
rip them to shreds
why don't you take this skin
slap it until red blossoms
why don't you take these thoughts
crush them until they are powder.

never good enough.

put on smiles for you
so big my lips tingle.
lend a ear, listening
concentrating, interacting.

never good enough.

try is a useless word
one that has been worn, tired
and locked away for others

beautiful, you say.
but these flaws. so many. too many.

smart, you say.
but these reports. no hard work.

good person, you say.
but these scars. these weaknesses.

you are full of ironies. contradictions.
throw them in my face
my screams are muffled.
wanting what is never in reach
typical. so typical.
never happy.
no. no. no.

i can never be like you
i will never be like you.

broke free, wings ready for flight.

gone.

you will miss me.
but there's nothing for me here.




never good enough.