My hands are bruising from grasping my headboard
as I slowly go crazy
silent screams and waves of tears
are the result of my inner guilt and fear
I fear I will not get to be held by you
I fear I can't look into those eyes
three months ago I was your whole world
two months ago you were mine
today you are all I think about
As I slowly go crazy
pounding the feathers of my pillow
I am reminded that I know what falling in love feels like
And that I know it is the worst pain in the world to be without the one you love
And have to pretend he's just another lost aquaintance