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And it starts,
With a choice of mine
And it burns,
Through this heart of mine
Why can't I love you both?
Tell me why it's so gross
Why is it wrong,
What is it wrong with me?
Why can't I be the way I want to be?
See you the way I want to see?
Bleed the way I want to bleed?

You know I hate how it is
You know I wish I could change it
But you know I hate changing

You know I love you both,
It doesn't matter if I love you the most
It still hurts, burns inside
Every night, it makes me cry

Just because I love you more,
Doesn't mean it won't hurt me too
Even if she hates me after it,
It'll tear my heart in two
Cause even if I care more for you,
I can't stop loving her too

Even when I want to lie,
with you I always say what's true,
at least to me,
maybe not to you

Every single word I've said,
I hate every one, every time,
But when I'm with I don't have to wonder why,
You give some purpose to my life,
Even if only in your arms I am to die,
It's better than what I had when I lived a lie