April is all graveyards and hauntings I see carnations instead of tulips, I see your ghost everywhere
she & I talk in hushed tones on the phone sentences breaking under the weight of the words they hold
I wonder if you know that all I want is to love one person as much as she loves you and here I am seeing your spirit in their bones and all I know how to do is to throw rope to anyone who will catch it because even when I am sinking, I'm shoving someone else to the surface
I am trying to save the bits and pieces of you as if I pull this one away from darkness, I am saving you, as if I push that one toward the light, I am saving myself
I wonder what you'd say if you knew I'd all but abandoned my religion what you'd say if I told you all of the memories taste bittersweet I wonder what you'd say if I told you that nothing you built up was strong enough to soften the blow and nothing you'd say now matters because you tore it all down