There's so much fear building up inside of me
So much regret and so much sorrow.
I've been through hell and back.
I've seen darker things than most can comprehend.
I've spent days crying.
Nights drinking.
Hidden moments cutting.
All things I used to hide.
Hide from the past.
From the emotional torments I still hold.
The memories I run from.
Memories of my uncle yelling.
Memories of the loneliness,
Of the darkness inside of my mind.

And then there's now....
Now I sit here facing my fears.
Facing the past and all that has occurred.
Remembering instead of hiding.
Sober instead of drunk.
Writing instead of cutting.
I've gone through hell and back to change.
To be the person I want to be.
Not the person I used to hide.

And now...
I am so scared
Scared to go back to my life.
To be the person I am now.
In the world that drug me down.
But here I am facing my fears...