I feel like I am always hiding.
Never showing the real me.
Never telling anybody how I feel or what I think.
I have always hidden inside and out.
I physically hide behind my long hair and spunky clothing.
I mentally hide behind this wall that I created long ago.
I hid from my friends, my family, and the one I love.
And as I am getting closer and closer
to all of these people for the first time...
I can feel this wall slowly start to crumble,
And it scares me like nothing has before.
I am slowly starting to talk more,
and get comfortable with everyone.
Escape from my shell, I guess.
I have always hidden, inside and out.
I honestly don't know how much longer it is going to last.
But I can tell it won't be that long.
And it scares me and makes me for the first time...
feel vulnerable and kind of raw in a way.
Part of me wants them to actually know who I am.
But I am scared...
I have always hidden inside and out
And I don't know what to do.
Should I give and let them in?
Or should I try to stay hidden?
And just wait for this wall to crumble?