i can tell when someone is lying
by the way their eyes move
side to side like a clock
ticking down the inevitable time
and the bomb finally goes off
and unimaginable pain occurs
left in the aftermath of the war
even the past can’t wash away
the wave of sorrow in your chest
because
the past has a funny way of flowing in
rising up and drowning you in it
with resurfacing the water comes
the memories you attempted to drown
long before “im okay” meant “im okay”
now it was a means to an end
like a wrong decision made up
because you didn’t want to deal
with the outcome of the war
being told “everything is going to be okay”
“it’s alright kid”
only made the fire burn brighter
and the water only fueled the flame
because only the past can bring pain
and no one realizes
that rash decisions have consequences
now you are running out of time
because the fury takes over
controlling your inner soul
now my eyes are moving
side to side like a clock
because i am only lying to myself