Today you will wake up anxious
Roll out of bed a little more gracious than usual
Stretch your back, pull your shoulders back
Take in a deep breath, exhale and smile
Check your phone to see if she has left you a message
You think of how she will look tonight
Double check to make sure the reservations are still intact
Make sure that everything will go as planned
But then again, even if it doesn’t, you will still be with her
Today you will avoid me
It will be different from the rest of the week
You will be too busy preparing to reply
Your mind will wander towards an image of her
You know she will look better dressed up than I ever did
Today you will put on a button up shirt
Tuck it in your slacks
Wash your face, look in the mirror and grin
You cannot wait to see her
Today you will put on a tie
And will be sure it is the perfect length
You will make sure it is not too tight
Make sure she can get if off if needed
Today you will go out
Dance the night away with her hand in yours
You will be nervous the whole time
Because you don’t want to mess up
But even in the midst of your anxiety
She has an aroma of peace about her that can always calm you
She is better than I ever was to you
Today the universe is reminding me that you are a love I have long lost
She will look in the mirror, smile in practice for pictures
I cannot look in a mirror anymore  because all I see are the parts of myself that you got sick of looking at
My sober mind blushes at the thought of you dressed up
But I cringe at the thought of you kissing her
I wish you a safe night, fun, exciting
Be careful, and I will try to be careful too
For my night will be much more dangerous
Locked away in the confines of this unusually cold bed