tonight the threshold has been reached
I have climbed the highest mountain of desperation for peace
believe me not when ghosts speak tales of mountains of cruelty
I have been there as well

tonight I shall crucify the monster that was born in me
through your frigid hands
and I shall crucify his mother

tonight things I never thought could be done, will happen
and I will walk away with water on my shoulders
walk away with a drought in my eyes
I will not shed salt for this anymore

tonight I will be moved by things that I have yet to expeirence
things like relentless exuberance at midnight alone
drenched in the company of my own hands
nothing can tear me apart from myself

tonight I will drown

I will burn

I will remember nothing