you see, i'm fine and you're fine
you keep minding your life
and i'll keep minding mine,
except sometimes, only it feels like
all the time
for me, the sun won't shine;
even when it shines
it doesn't shine in my eyes
and i don't know why-
i don't know why
no matter how hard i try
i can't define what's making me cry,
can't understand why the pain
inside abides, but it hides
and no matter how much i lie and lie
to you on the outside,
fake my smiles, my happiness,
deep down i can't deny
the depression.
i don't know why it hurts all the time
all i want to do is
get high
say goodbye
resign,
escape somehow and
find my cloud nine.
i can't climb out of this
decline of my life;
i'm done with the gray skies, wet eyes,
lack of laugh lines.
i hate to see you standing on the sideline,
always nearby,
but now matter how much you try,
you can't provide, can't supply
what's missing in my life
because i can't reply;
i'm tongue-tied and i don't know why.
i'm coming untied,
slipping through the divide,
one piece at a time,
silently screaming
i never chose this hopeless ride,
please forgive me for
wanting to die-
the pain
just won't
subside.