I made a list of stuff I have to get at target I'm sitting on my bed only it feels like a ****** island the only appealing feeling to me is helplessness and a shower I want to cough in the shower and feel like I'm losing everything I don't want to choose my Sunday I want Sunday to choose me can you let me put my nose in your neck I realize that I have a different kind of angst now that I want to cry about nothing to you I woke up and wanted you I want you when I have bad posture I want to hunch my back next to you I'm really not forgetting about you you've told me about you crying and I want to watch a movie and cry with you I wonder what your arms feel like