-Joelena Saldana
6/22/14
They all said he would change, I didn't believe them. He's had so many chances to change, so why would he choose this one. I still live in worry and stress. I have to watch myself, everything I do. I don't want to make him stressed, mad, annoyed, worried... Moving from state to state can' change a person, money can't change a person, and ( I guess ) time can't either. He does nothing with hands, but with his words there's destruction. I don't want to be scared or worried. I don't want to not be me! I don't want to change how I TALK, how I WALK, how I FEEL, and HOW I AM... WHO I AM! I don't want to watch what I do. They said that now he's different, he's changed, he's had time. But I face reality. I trust myself to know how he is from my eyes. His words hurt, his sarcasm is painful, his attitude is unbearable. After twelve years, I knew he wouldn't change. Just from a time o a year and a half... Everyone lives on hope and he image of things, but luckily for me, I know the difference. The things that people buy for others don't always make them feel happy and thankful or the other person, but for he thing or object that they bought. It's never always about money, but about true happiness and feelings. Please don't make me go through this again, I am afraid. I just want a chance to no be scared.. To be me in front of him. But this time, I will put faith on something that I've always been afraid to put emotions and feelings on... Hope. The one thing that can tease me, hurt me, destroy me. So please, Hope, help me. Just this once..
Hope.. Please--