This city rustles under moonlight
as my eyes lie restless under lids,
and you lips form soundless words
while you dream of things I long to know
I have lost myself amongst the streets
in coffee shops and clouds of smoke
Your eyes no longer hold my gaze,
and your fingers do not linger
When you touch my hand
my face
my collarbone
my neck
How did I get here?
Where do I go?
My mind is black.
My eyes scour the streets for pieces of myself,
But I have gone.
I have hidden in the shops
I have hidden in the streets
I have hidden under beds, blankets, and blackness.
I barely feel the cold damp air as I fly along the street
Searching for something, anything that will make me feel again.
You do not know how much I long to touch you,
To tell you I am here
But you can't see me because I'm buried
Under layers of numbness and skin and clothes
I have hidden in myself
So deep
I fear I will drown
In the great abyss of blackness that occupies my mind.
I awoke with sunlight on my face,
and my eyes upon your sleeping form
I wait for you to wake, and hope your eyes will search for mine
but you've grown distant in my darkness...
Where have I been?
Why did I go?
Why am I crying in secret under covers while you sleep?
Why can't I tell you that I love you?
That you are everything I need
To save me from myself...
We fly past cities I cannot pronounce.
The mountains leave me breathless,
and I wonder
How is it to lose your breath
Among the clouds and snow
And fade away alone, into blackness?
We have been where many wish to go
We have loved in places where many wish to love
We have lost our minds,
Only to find them packed, tightly into suitcases
Between the folds of our shirts.
Though I feel as if I've lost it all
between the cracks in the cobblestone,
and corners of the narrow streets,
in hotels where I toss and turn
where your are lost within your sleep
Please save me I am fading
Please save me I am drowning
Drowning in you,
Drowning in me,
Drowning in everything I thought I know
Of life
Of love
Of darkness
Then it stops, you speak
I hear
Your arm is at my shoulders and your smile meets your eyes
And I, am no longer lost.