I wonder if life will ever hold out a hand. .. For now I feel the weight unbearable. She never leaves yet is always away from me. I feel my soul was almost breaking down completely until the moon threw its face out of the night sky and looked up at me. The moon is so beautiful illuminated with warmth… but all that surrounds the moon is an icy fast that keeps me from ever touching the moon. The moon has always been in my sight. And I was never shy of the moon's precious light. I finally felt "I must visit the moon finally, I must be free to enjoy my life with the moon. There is nothing else on Earth that keeps me warm." I finally tried to extend my reach outward, only to be held down by the gravity of reality. The Earth keeps me from ever reaching the sweet, sweet moon. And the icy surrounding has also made it almost impossible to just simply touch the moon. My eyes were always on the moon for some time. And for the past cycles I have truly been able to see how much meaning and love I share and hold with the moon. I feel the soft light of the moon touch my skin and I feel nothing. I am too far away to feel anything. Too numb and lost to feel or think. My eyes shed tears, which are suddenly ripped off my face by the fears I hold inside. I have always understood the moon almost as much as the moon understands me. But even after all these years… all of the trust we hold…. It seems the distance is just too much. I can only hope the tides draw in soon. The tears held by the tide may reveal to the now waning moon there is no need to fall behind the Earth's shadow any longer.