Dear former self

   * A Warning of Things to Be Aware Of:*

THE BOYS WHO TELL YOU THEY LOVE YOU ARE LIARS:
    Wringing out emotions that are told in angry whispers
    Their tongues like whips will leave you in small rooms
    With familiar strangers, crying about guilt that isn’t there
    Circling fingers, burning scars into your flesh
    Leaving you to doubt everyone after them, trailing fire.
    Forgive them.
It’s been traced into their DNA.
YOUR MOTHER WILL LEAVE:
    The porcelain plates she dropped with be carved from your bones
     Leave the tattered reasons why
     You cannot help her escape the life she chose
      To rot in her rose garden.
      Do not ask if she is coming back.
      A poet as a daughter, a disappointment.
      Forgive her.
She does not know better
     YOUR DAM WILL BREAK:
         The trust you weigh on your family, so close knit
          Will forever weave you to them.
       A stray will appear. In the form of voyeurism. a break in stichting
           Lens glaring against the morning sun streaming in through the window
           Seven times.
           Forgive Him.
Actually, don’t.
        YOUR LIGHT WILL NOT GO OUT
           Ceaseless.
           Do not flick the switch.
The circuits are shorted.
Love, yourself.