A great battle between my past and the present

I came here to this stage to drop my words and vent.

Repent,

From my sins.

So what? I gave in.

Keep judging , not budging, thinking you're lies are gonna win

And inside I am boiling and toiling, the line is getting thin.

Working hard to keep cooled, I'm playing nice

But ya keep testing me and next time I might not think twice

To explode

Reload

And blast ya with the truth

Was trying to keep ties

But now they are coming loose

You won't listen, you won't try

You sit there like you know

Then why  do I cry?

Say I'm cold and I'm changed

Maybe I am, from all the pain

Is all this hurting me fun and what is there to gain

Keep pushing me away

And even though you don't know it today

You will and I promise regret your choices

Later on in your ear, you'll hear the voices

Its your mind nagging

And bagging on the decision you made

Try to push it away but the noise, it won't fade.

So keep the turmoil raging inside

Keep on the attack because you  have something to hide

How silly of me, to think in you I could confide

Change of ways, darker days, and to you I am seeing a new side

It is black and consumes

No more blossoms, nothing blooms

And my fire it burns, shut your mouth, no more turns

Just keep quiet and listen as I spit out the fumes

I am tired of this and of that

My heart has taken a beating like blows from a bat

Quit complaining and saying

Things that you know couldn't be real

*** miles become feet and feet become inches

And I am getting closer to showing you how I feel

You once had a cover to keep you looking clean

But now it is worn and it is starting to peel

And as all of this happens, I pick up steam

Moving on

Moving forward

Moving past

Better hurry and get wise

This offer just won't last

Once I'm over the edge

No I can't come back

Can handle a bruise but watch out I might crack

Think ya got what ya need but it's all going to lack

The one thing

The true meaning to this

The purity and bliss

Hope ya have fun *** that's what you'll miss.