Is this pain I feel
A test or curse
Will it make me a man
Or something far far far worse

I try not to show it
It hides way inside
I cannot control it
It eats me alive

I dare not show weakness
I have to push on
Yet don’t have the power
To stand on my own

So I hide in the shadows
Away from the light
The darkness brings comfort
I live for the night

I wrap in a blanket
Of lies and deceit
I wear many masks
To hide the defeat