I had the words to this poem In my mind at some point Before I breathed them all out One at a time Uncontrollably
I’m trying to turn on light bulbs By setting the filament ablaze And drying my hair with a blowtorch Doesn’t seem like such a bad idea
If red is the color of fire And blue is the color of water It’s really no surprise that My favorite color is purple
Inside my mind there is a lake Clear, calm, undisturbed Reflecting the unmoving clouds In the overcast sky
I walk around with my head down Hiding under an umbrella Pockmarked by the bullets That it didn’t block It never lets the sunshine in Only the rain
If people are so scared of the cold The heat, the rain, the hail The storms and the snow The wind and the night Why am I terrified of the walls And the ceiling in my room?
If I were drowning in the ocean Instead of screaming for help Or swimming to the nearest shore I’d probably try to run away from the problem
I’d never want to be a cartographer I drew a map of my mind once It’s a little circle in the middle The rest scribbled out by permanent marker For the places I haven’t explored
There’s ash on my hands From trying to dig out the memories That weren’t set ablaze By the thoughts in my mind
I don’t know where I went It’s somewhere mixed in With the rough carbon copies That I keep for reference In the depths of my subconscious
My mind’s eye has gone colorblind All my thoughts are black and white The grey reprieves the monotony Until I start to think about it too much And rip up the canvas
On days like today it feels like I fell asleep behind the steering wheel Years and years ago And slipped off into an unpleasant dream Where I’m still alive