All these colours I see around
they all have started to seem grey
the blatant petals of tulips bloom
shameless in the light of day
I blame the things that make me whole
despise the winds that roar and roll

I'm shadowed by my thought
and wonder when the night arrives
when tulips no more bloom or boast
the moon shines shameless in the night
still I'll wonder why I'm alive
and deny myself a worthy life

All these colours; they have no dreams
and so my dreams are greyish black
malignant grief like a venomous snake
bares its fangs and bites my back
time goes on without a heed
as I go on without a plead

It does not end, the suffering stays
I have become a hollow shell
a carcass that just will not die
my body once hallowed, now a hollow hell
peace has said its last goodbye
the devil stares with his evil eye

Yes I've seen the diamonds rust
I've witnessed ache of battered bones
I blame the things that grant me life
my scattered thoughts, and shattered hopes
I blame the thing that they call God
and grieve the death of virtue, awed

This sublime sickness rots my soul
this horror! If only I were blind
I blame and blame, all and everything
leaving my murdered self behind
But what's their fault? they cannot help
now I see; now I see, I blame myself