Should I just along with myself?

I never did get along with anybody else.



I know I make mistakes,

They're gonna haunt me to my grave

I know I'm not the best,

Not any better then the rest

So I sit here and stare all night,

Searching for something that feels right



I hope, I hope, I hope for the best,

I hope so much more than all the rest

Is it enough?

I wish I knew,

I kneel and pray till my face turns blueI know I'm not the best,

Not any better than the rest

But ya gotta know when I say,

I wish I could just take away my pain

It hurts every time,

I scream and shout, and I cry



Should I just get along with myself?

I never did get along with anybody else...



I listen to sweet songs of black and blue,

To sick tunes of love so true...

I wish, I wish, I wish I knew,

I play this song on repeat so much my ears go deaf,

No sweet melody can repair what's left

I know I'm not the best,

Not any better than the rest

I want to know what's right,

I want to give up without a fight

I have no energy to even see

No energy to resist as I bleed...



I give in to the energies...

I finally give in and secede...

Life was always to much for me,

I never saw it till I could bleed

I wish I would just be brought down to my knees,

The headman's axe is all I need...



Should I just get along with myself?

I never did get along with anybody else



That always was the problem, anyways

I was always the one to hate,

Myself in all my spit and rage

And so I strike upon this wall,

slowly numbering my days

5750 is what I'm at,

I sit and ponder that

Why have I lived so long,

How, when my mind is so far gone

How did I ever get along



I think of days long passed,

Days long gone,

I think of all my good and wrong,

I know that through all the pain I have,

The love gets me through,

In a world of lies, that is always true

Like a dark rose in my life,

It is forgiven in my mind

Hating myself never got me anywhere

Loving others was what kept me there

It's what keeps me here now,

What makes me drag myself around



I  don't want to cry,

But as I write, it comes through my eyes

I don't know anymore,

I don't know what I'm here for



Two points for honesty,

You told the truth that makes me see,

even when it makes me scream,

and cry and kick and bleed



Poison in everything you say,

don't you, don't you,

wonder what difference does it make...

either way...



I love you, I love you, I love,

And all of your pieces



My ears are blown to bits, from all the rifle hits,

but still I crave that sound



Higher and higher, we're gonna take it,

Down to the wire



It was only a kiss,

It was only a kiss



What is it?

What is this?

Is this hate?

Or is it bliss?

What can't I see?

What have I missed?

Is it me?

Am I a piece of **?



why oh why,

I weep, I cry,

I wonder,

I wonder why,

I forgive you, please,

Stop this in my head,

I've forgiven you,

I wish I was dead



Like a dark rose inside my head,

I forgive you, please, just go ahead

Hurt me, **** me, make me cry,

I deserve the pain, I won't wonder why

When I bleed,

When i die



Should I just get along with myself?

I never did get along with myself,

I never did see what I saw in anybody else,

Only the tears running down my face