I remember his eyes,
as blue as the ocean
I wanted to go for a swim.
I remember how he kissed me
slowly as if i might break.
I remember how he played with my hair
combing it gently with his fingers.
I remember how he held me,
his arm tight around my waist.
I remember the smell of smoke
that lingered from his last cigarette.
I remember how it it weakened my asthma plagued lungs
I remember him biting my lip
hard enough to draw blood.
I remember his free hand roaming up my leg,
and how i grabbed his wrist to stop him.
I remember trying to protest,
but not a sound escaped my lips.
I remember the realization,
he was stronger than me.
I remember giving up
and going numb.
I remember his eyes, as blue as the ocean;
I jumped in and the waves went over my head
they dragged me under.
I jumped in and i drowned.