I try to get in her head Tell her she's ok There were so many doubts... Hair, waiste, skin, feet, eye, voice All of it. None of it. Her mother was no where She was there, but not Where she was needed. She needed someone herself, So it's easy to forgive... Forgetting is too, when you're genuine.
Boys made her feel better. Special, loved, noticed. Man, I'm sad for her now. Knowing what I know now, Poor child. The break down of the tribe. No women to guide this young Woman. Alone, most days. Quite Naturally, unless anxiety set in. Or I just really like you.
So I struggle to write about Me. Seems she couldn't be If those days weren't seen. I embrace what I've witnessed. There's a message back there I missed it . I trust her. She's guiding me With intention.
So let's see...
Wicked dreams. Thoughts of screaming. Being killed in my sleep. Throat ripped Open. Bleed in my dreams. Being chased, watched, schemed. Perhaps there's something here
Fear How firm is it's grasp Fear to be me...
I was scared to go home most days. Hated summer vacation after a few weeks. Longed for Mondays. To be back in a place I felt safe. School. How insane. But true.
I'd look round the corner, Hoping the lot was empty of red, Maybe even he was dead. He never died. He lied. They did. So disrespectfully. And to a kid? Could have just kept some things Private... Anyways,
It's the way it was. I remember the Simpsons More than feeling love. Mom always seemed distant. As I am now. Best advice ! Go out and get it out! Come back clean and focused And ready to heal The next. They are here now watching, Preparing poems of the future. Alright let's get it all out...