The world is full
Of ****** reds
And smiles that burst
And wings that burn
And all those screams that break my world

There were times I cried,
But not today and
never for you.
You broke me, yes, of course
But I still refuse to give in.
I´m worthless.
A fragment of what I was
So long, so long ago.
I´m not sad, I act
And you don´t see it
Maybe you don´t want to.
Maybe you forgot
My real smile and laugh.
Maybe you just don´t care anymore.

Maybe I just failed to be
Who you wanted me to be.
Maybe, just maybe
You just don´t care anymore.

I failed to be perfect.
Worthless.
Stupid.
Ugly, even.

There were times I dared to object.
But rarely,
For you. Just for you.
You ignored me for so long
I don´t even remember your voice,
When you say
“Well done”
Useless.
A wilted flower
that never bloomed, you know?
I´m not angry.
Not at all, but you
Won´t see it anyway.
Maybe you forgot my voice as well.
Or you really don´t care anymore.

The world is full of colours,
And I see them in a haze.
Smiling desires
Bleeding hearts.
Endless agony.
And it´s all your fault