i laid there for 2 hours staring at the blades of the oak ceiling fan as they created a constant rhythm stirring the air that was circulating this godforsaken room.
i laid there with just a shirt on plucking the torn threads that sprouted from the couch cushions -- i just laid there. numb.
nothing really seemed the same anymore
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tell me,
why didn't you stop? i asked you to stop 14 times and those stops were intertwined with quiet, desperate whispers of "please" and "no" i know you heard me i know you knew what you were doing and i know that you knew that i wanted you to stop.
but you didn't. you didn't stop.
so look at me, take a look at me. fractured, unraveling and spiraling downward faster than anything you've ever seen.