I keep wondering
pondering
assuming
why I only feel
bittersweet when I hear of you
did I not love you enough
to feel a pang in my heart
or was it that you were
too immersed in your own world
and I some how knew
your heart wouldn't stop
skip a beat
throb
when you heard of me
or saw my name
with each drawn out letter
sound

your heart
never truly learned my name