I needed you today.
I caught only air when trying to wrap you in my arms.

I needed you today.
I needed to feel you lift my chin
And look deep into my eyes as if you were looking straight into my soul.
The way you always do.

I needed you today.
I needed to hear your soothing voice whisper, “Everything will be ok,”
To drown out the yelling and fighting in the room next door.

I needed you today.
I needed to feel your embrace, your protection, your love,
Helping me escape the taunting sobs two walls away.
I needed you to dry my own tears,
To let me bury my face in your shoulder.
I needed the simple comfort of your warmth next to me.

Can you feel it?
Do you hear it?
My heartbeat.
Because I still know the sensation of yours against my ear
As I lay my head upon your chest,
Closing my eyes,
Sinking into that moment and wishing for its eternity.

Can you feel it?
Do you hear it?
My presence.
I’m with you every day,
Though you would never know.

I close my eyes and see your sweet, captivating grin,
Your tender, mesmerizing eyes.
I search for silence, hoping to hear your voice.

I can still feel your fingertips brush against my skin.
I can still feel your hand run through my hair.
I can still feel my heart race with a glance at your image.
I can still feel everything that ever involved you.
Yet, I can’t,
For it is just a memory,
And I long to feel it again.

I summon strength from somewhere inside on most days,
But today?
I needed you –
More than I ever have in our time apart.

I needed you today.
But I cannot let myself run to you,
For I love you far too much.
And my love is your burden.

I needed you today.