dreaming is a beautiful gift we are given. some don't get to experience it as often as others do. we take for granted our dreams until we begin to have nightmares. but the things is nightmares are the only way we can appreciate our dreams. dreaming won't be enough forever. dreaming isn't reality. we wish to live in our dreams, so some of us do. some of us choose to dream forever. some of us never wake up. one day that will be us. we will be so engulfed in our dreams we won't need to wake up, but when that time comes our dreams will be reality. that's when I'll be sitting on that ledge cussing at the world. I'll be loathing in self pity wondering why it took all of these years for me to finally realize this is my destiny. this is how it was meant to be. you'll be off doing bigger and better things in the house we dreamed of together, but only one thing will be different. I won't be there. someone else will be there for you. someone better. someone who has the right words to say when you're getting bad. I never could come up with anything meaningful or anything that could help get you out. I am only a listener. and a person can only stay quiet before they break.