how many sleepless nights do you want to experience to finally understand that what all you want in life is balance?

feeling like a zombie that just roams aimlessly trying to find the next target. frustration in the form that you just want to rip your own face or brain off. because you just can't do things right. you blame yourself.

it's useless. those sea waves are always stronger than you are. no matter how hard you try. maybe you're just you own enemy. maybe you're fighting against yourself.

remember how in our childhood days we would feel happiness everyday without fail? looking at pretty flowers, flying kites, playing toys, playing with friends at the playground. naivety. where life was so much more brighter, filled with hope and laughter every single day.

i would do all i can to feel like that again.
and this is why, i can't sleep all night.