Nothing horrible has happened to me Nothing dramatic or terrible Just heartbreak and heartache The residual stabs of love leftover in my heart ā the best worst pain I know
Iām stranded in an interminable frigid winter No naked flame to warm my frozen hands No asylum from the slicing pangs of breath taking wind Finally the cold becomes unbearably welcome And I succumb to the miserable icy sting
I used to hate the cold It was bitter and lonely It cut deep into my being
But now I embrace the cold Because it is the only thing I feel Each expelled breath is a minute nebula of hyperborean vapor A release of masked sorrow
My heart is like the cold Innocent and clean in appearance Like a fresh coat of snow painting the earth in ethereal powder But beautiful appearances are the most deceptive Just as a winter storm produces the darkest nights And barren forests stripped of their once fructiferous leaves So is the weary state of this freezing heart
But there is strange beauty in this cold A nostalgic kind of loneliness that is worth embracing The cold grades the jagged curvature of my life It settles deep into my white bones It inspires thought It makes me appreciate what is mine It makes me appreciate the warmth