my heart is screaming but you can't hear me
i have so many words I want to say to you
to many questions I want to find answers for
so much time i wish i could take back

Its been almost a year since the last time i saw you
emotions were raw, and tensions were running high
I wish i had stopped you when we both left
I wish i had swallowed my pride then and told you

I'm sorry

My heart aches to make it up to you some how, some way
I just wish you'd listen for once in all of this mess
I wish you'd look in my eyes without hate and distain
I wish you would feel that my heart is so sorry

So sorry that I judged you without even knowing you
Sorry that I listened to him and his stupid stupid words
Sorry that i let what he told me color the beautiful person you are
So sorry that I came in between you and him because he is an idiot

I wish that i could go back three years and do all of this over
there are so many things that i would never have done
I wish that I had those few conversations you and i had back
So that i could let you know that i don't hate you

You treated me so awful, you stalked me, you wanted me to die
But when its all said and done i don't hate you
I know that you were caught in the mess just like was in
in the cycle of abuse, mind games, and lies

I am so sorry for my part in all of this and what I did
I know that i am the only one responsible for me
I am so sorry for the times when i should have taken your side
For the times i should have shut him up, when i should have walked away

You are worlds away from me, our lives have moved on
There is no way on earth for me to find you
You can't hear me because your to far away to hear my heart scream
I often wonder if you even care to hear my feelings

So this is my apology, because you will probably never hear it
This is my way of saying i wish i could take it all back
My heart hurts when i think back over the situation.
I am so so sorry.