here i am bored and lost
trying to change but at no cost
no matter what i did
i return to old
drinking away
being so bold.
my attitude changes
but unknown why
now i think
where do i lie (spelling off)
my thoughts are scattered
i scrounge for change
just one beer i say
as i count away
three dollars not enough
seven gives me the excuse
"need my pool tabel"
five on pool two on *****
whats wrong with me?
what happens next?
what if my depression hits?
help is near but out of reach
what is next?
help me
i am calling
help me
i am asking
help me
help me
help