Am I the reason why u ain't sleeping, Tell me I'm not the cause for your lack of eating, Got a call last weekend and my heart stop beating, Ricky on  life support, Too much bleeding, Hooked up to machinery to keep him breathing, I ain't been home in some months, U said God would punish me, Is this what he want, Lose it all just to get everything, Is this what I want, Am I such a front, That I never came back, Sometimes I think back like I shouldn't have said that, If I could only fly, But I can only cry, My homie bout to die, Had a chance to save a life, And I ain't even try,

My homie in the casket now, Numb myself with codeine and ****, Pass it round, Momma said Meech u done changed up, I'm like say what, She replied u got the power to change stuff, For the tours u would stay up, But ignoring the phone call cause u was laid up, U could've came and saw him, But u only do it for applause, U made an oath to your fam, Now u adding clauses, Bestfriend asked why I'm at the funeral, Could've done something, Could've came sooner too, People giving stares like "who is u", What the hell is going on, What am I doing wrong, And I look at my reflection, But it don't look back, Look where the hell I'm stuck at , Fame or family, I ain't evil, But everybody damning me, I'm damaged see, Mom remember the day I was almost six feet, She said why I ain't just stay asleep, She ain't care if my breath was short, She wanted to take me off of life support, They resent me, Condemn me, Now u know why m family ain't friendly,

Tha Poet