I can’t stop dreaming about you

It’s almost frustrating that I remember you so well

How even in the background I can make you out despite the chaos

You stand out

Like a ghost on a Polaroid

Now I sleep till noon so I can see you again

This is how you help me remember

That when I wake up sweating

Heart beating a train engine

Tears I forgot I could still make

Drying salty in my beard

There’s nothing to be afraid of

And suddenly

All I wanna do is go back to sleep again

I daydream about sleeping

At work

And in the car

Turns out the recipe for sleep dust in not crushed up Tylenol PM

But I try

And the recipe for happiness in not tucked away

Underneath a blue blanket on an uncomfortable bed that I no longer wish to
sleep in

But I try

With all the pressure of pushing eyelids

Squinted tight

Had me lookin' like a kid again

Afraid of some bad thing in the dark

So I pray for sleep again

And find you exactly as I left you

Like a ghost on a Polaroid

So haunting

And so beautiful