Always have I watched you, never understood

You dance as though a marionette, a mere doll of wood

Yet as we dance you take the lead

following steps quite known to me however done more skillfully and with much greater speed

Through you I have lived a million lives, through me you outlived them all

Despite the choreography I begin to see the height we have to fall

The more I gaze the more I see

It is with this sight you have blinded me

This world we create eclipses another

But for the moment we see no other

We twirl around in close embrace

All the while we increase the pace

I speak of you as though a lover

While ushering others to your cover

As we stand awe inspired

Our gaze grows vigilant, never tired

Increase the beat as arrival nears

Its now the time I get the fear

Impatience slows the sands of time

Now im but a child waiting in line

Anticipation has made you great

By now I no longer wish to wait

The fear inside begins to grow

As all others have let go

Your once grand world is crumbling down

This truth continues to weigh my crown

Lost in your world of merriment

I ebb towards retirement

Like the grasshopper I have danced too long

Thus winter is about to dawn

The decision here is quite complicated

Do I finish our waltz or merely vacate it?

This dance is both my greatest accomplishment as well as my fiercest downfall

I could be known for it or not at all

Now my mind is shrouded in mist

My next step could lead over the precipice

My final thoughts are the ramblings of a buffoon

One who wants his cake but wishes to consume

I will not give up this dream of mine nor shall I give in

I shall find a way to dream my dream, but, also I shall win