Outside her apartment window
Hidden in the shadows of lawn ornaments and sullen trees
I stand against the onslaught of a sour storm
Beat down ragged and suspended in pouring rain
I take one last long hard drag off of my cigarette
Spit out a ravenous piece of cancerous lung
Peer past the tree leaves and oak branches
Her exquisite corpse of a silhouette gestures madly
Distracting discussions over the telephone
Locked safely behind her closed curtains
My fists begin to clench tightly in some remorseless insult
My feet slink like a ghost ship up the staircase leading to her residence
The doorknob seems to turn effortlessly in the palm of my rain soaked hand
I slither into the darkened living room
With only the slightest creak and moan of the wooden floorboard
With only treacherous laments rising through my heartbroken mind
Her bedroom door a glow in a shimmering sultry fluorescent halo
I stand outside of another dimension
Listening to her silken voice decry her shamed heart
Brightstar plays softly in the background
Framing the anguish of uneasy conversations
My breath feels like molten lead
Heavy and filling the space between her beauty and me
Compelled by some deep rooted idea racing in my brain
My hand reaches towards the doorknob and noiselessly turns
Her back is to me
She cannot see me
She never sees me
This consideration hangs in the storm-ravaged night
As the clouds conceal the sky
And the eyes of whatever benevolent being may exist
We are alone
Just her and I
The way that it should have been
The way that it will always be
The distance between us closes as my whole body moves with silent enraged urgency
She feels my hot breath breathing and blowing against wisps of hair draping down her shoulder
She utters out a frightened gasp and hastily turns to face the monster behind her
A coy smirk slips across her beautiful lips
And her martini eyes enliven with the burn of ecstasy
Her arms constrict around my frame in some coalescent embrace
She begins to smother me with kisses and tears
As she howls about brighter days and star filled nights in the country
I stand stoic
Undamaged by her latest exhibit of penitence filled affection
I gently lift her head up by the chin
Gaze reflectively into her eyes
And give her one last kiss…


One last kiss.