... You see that’s where you are.
What do you mean?
You can only go so far in life, and then your stuck... done.
Who can only go so far... me?
Everyone.
Everyone?
Listen he said cracking his knuckles; the past... the future it’s not real...
Not real?
Not real he said softly. It’s just an idea... as a collective species can only go so far, and then were done...  it’s done... your done.
Done?
His lidded eyes sighed heavily and he repeated softly The big empty.... done
Death?
No... not exactly... I mean it could be death, but you can be dead without dying.
Right. I said shaking my head what ya drinking? I picked up his glass sniffed it, then put it down in front of him,
This spiked with acid?
Maybe he said, but that’s not the point.
You got that right buddy, there is no point. I laughed darkly.
Ok if you say so.
I say so.
He nodded and looked away as he shook his whiskey resting upon a avalanche of ice.
Silence reigned..
I knew he was right.
That was why I was so restless ...
so unhappy, because deep down, where it counted, I thought I should have been more...
done more with my life...
that’s why I was always so jealous of others who had success...
That’s why the limited success’s I had experienced always felt hollow...
why no matter how much praise and admiration I experienced...
it wasn't enough...
it’s why I was such a narcissistic *******... why I never thought of others, much less their feelings...
This knowledge of my limitations had always and would continue to always to drive me mad.
I closed my eyes and sighed I had nothing more to say.
I was a dead man, long sense... dead man... no future... dead man... a unrepentant dead man.
A dead man all along.
A dead man,
I was just waiting for my body  to catch up.

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