You say you care, but you don't, that's why you're not here but there. You said you'd change but you won't. Every night since I was five I'd have to be on my own,I learned to keep myself alive since you assumed I was grown. Some nights I craved a mother but you were off doing God only knows what. So I sold myself to be loved by another, now they nicknamed me a ****. I've convinced everyone but myself that I'm alright. Sometimes I wish I had a dad  If I did, I wouldn't be out late at night. I wouldn't have gone mad. I remember a long time ago I was turning thirteen. Mommy had a boyfriend named Joe, she loved him even though he was mean. One night while she was gone, he snuck in my room and on top of me; whispered in my ear that he was turned on, forced my legs open and ravished in me mercilessly. I remember the smell of beer. It tainted his breath, infiltrated my nose when he came near. By fifteen I was begging for death. I tried to tell mom, I really did. But it was stupid of me to think She'd leave her man for the sake of her kid. So he stayed over another night to have a drink. Mom claimed she had to go somewhere She left me alone with the monster. Now I have blood stains in my underwear, it's all because of her I figured I'd never find love. Because somewhere up high
There were angels from above
Who just wanted me to die.
I'm a broken woman, I can't help who I am today or who I was then. So I bid you good day.