I am somewhere i do not belong
I don't doubt this
I know
It has been a year
Since i have been haunted by guilt
Guilt for myself
Guilt for my dad
Guild for everything that has happened since then
I wish though, that i had been smarter
That i had mase the better choice
That i spoke
Of my own
And have not acted
Upon my mother's accord
But i know it is not her that i must blame
But myself
Because i had a voice
J was 17
I could have said no
I could have stayed
But i thought what i did was for the better
And now i have stuck
Drowned by my guilt and self loathe
Imprisoned by my own mind
But as people not know
The ocean, as calm as it is you see on the surface
Has many deep dark secrets

(E.G)